Debugging My First Month Of Unemployment
“It’s been a month since I left my well paying job”, that is a standard hook, right? Actually, the hook in itself doesn’t fit for my case. It was just a okay paying job with which I was affording my protein, carbs and fibre needs. Anyways, what does that hook symbolize? I went on some spiritual journey or I have got some big realization, and this post is for sharing that? No no, reality isn’t that romantic.
One day I was delivering notices all over Ayyampettai for Namma Store, but other day I was reducing the time of checkout by optimizing the database calls. One day I was running around for GST registrations, but other day I was learning to write stories. One day I was trying to persuade a DIC GM for providing us the subsidy, but other day learning Salesforce again. One day I was learning about linux kernel, but the other day I was doing some Node.js. One day I was doing leetcode and the other day I was just looking at the ceiling. One day I was vigorously applying jobs and other day I was fightning with Gemini about the red screen that appears on my app. One day I was doing all the deliveries, but other day I was strumming my Ukulele bad. I have everything and nothing to do at the same time.
My intention is always to move forward. But its exhausting. In computer science terms, I am running a BFS exploring every neighboring node, hoping that I would hit the target. May be I just need a hueristic function to point me to a right direction like we have in A*. But wait, what is my target? What this person actually wants? Where my life compass actually is pointing at? Am I searching for stability? Am I searching for a paycheck?
I do love the coding, the learning and the exploring. But what will I do for my protein, carbs and fibre needs? Oh you got me here. I am searching for a stability, I am searching for a paycheck with which I can afford more than just my protein, carbs and fibre needs. I know there are jobs out there, but isn’t it totally prohibited to put React, Flutter, Node and Salesforce together in a single resume. Oh we need to create separate resume, one for full-stack, one for frontend, one for backend, and one for salesforce? What would I write in that? That I did React.js and Node.js / Flutter in Deloitte to fulfill business requirements, which I actually did not. How will I come up with the stories? Is it not okay to be an Engineer who know little of all, who is being generalist and just want a job? Wait, I am claiming here to be an Engineer, with my BCA degree. Who would accept that?
May be this is the big realization, I just need a good paying job. But here I am, stuck with my BCA degree and 4 LPA package from my previous job. I will keep you posted on what happens next. Until then bye bye from Vishwa!